I would find it absolutely wonderful at the moment, if I could have a “normal” week. I know normality means different things to different people, but for me it means a week where I know exactly what I’m going to do all week long and where absolutely nothing changes from those plans. The reason behind this wish is that it is easier to plan the food for the week, if it is possible to follow routines.
I have actually come a long way, personally, when it comes to learning how to roll with the punches and react and work around sudden changes, but lately there have been more variables to my routine than I’m comfortable with and in the long run this isn’t good for my weight loss.
Last week I had to both skip going to class and write my blog due to a sudden and unexpected change in my work pattern. This week I had to go to class a couple of hours sooner than normal, due to a delivery I needed to be home for. It’s typical that when I have given the company the option to deliver my parcel between 6AM and 7PM, I get a timeslot that exactly covers the only time of my day I was going out, which was to my normal WW class.
I can see that you may wonder why I feel it is such a big deal to go to an earlier class, but for this week it was. A class two hours later would have meant a class two hours later since breakfast and that would have meant that I could have put down a loss of half a pound in my records instead of having yet another week where I stayed exactly the same weight. The reason I know this, is that I stepped on the scales at home at what would have been the time for my normal class and I really had lost half a pound at that time. Still I don’t have a loss recorded in my journal. The half a pound loss would also have meant a tiny step forward in my struggle to take off the weight I put on at Christmas.
I suppose you could say this loss will be ready and waiting for me next week instead. Sadly, at the moment I can’t guarantee any such things. The incoming week is a baking week yet again and a week where we will celebrate a birthday, so my efforts to follow the plan will have to overcome a lot of challenges.
The reason I so needed the encouragement of a loss this week, however tiny, is that I have had to fight so very hard with myself the last seven days. I’ve been fighting on every level and I have found it really hard to keep hold of anything positive. On top of that I’ve been hungry all the time. Not just a bit hungry. Oh no! I’ve been hungry on the level of “wanting-to-raid-the-fridge-uncountable-times -a-day” hungry. Not because I haven’t eaten, but because of being a woman in my fifties with all the hormonal changes this age brings with it. Taking that into consideration I am very proud of myself for not gaining any weight but being able to see a small loss in my records would have meant a lot to me today.
Still, it wasn’t to be. Hopefully I can continue to fight a positive fight during the incoming week too and see a loss of a pound or so next Thursday. Fingers crossed!
Have a good week and I see you in 7!